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[(05/13/04) (10:46PM)] |
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i don't really care anymore.
NEW JOURNAL. i'll tell you if i want you to know. and, if i think yr worthy. hahah. OH MAN.
mkay, new lj: ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) getyrguns.
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| zeroeightyfour. |
[(05/13/04) (09:10PM)] |
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ben folds - the luckiest |
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some say this is the end. but i say, it's not. oh, and if you're wondering: today was good because i slept when i came home. and when you sleep EVERYTHING just feels better afterwards.
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| zeroeightythree. |
[(05/12/04) (07:06PM)] |
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as the days countdown to my brother leaving for the navy, five more days now, i start to miss him more and more (even though he is still here). i thought i'd look forward to having the house to myself when he leaves but, in reality i don't, not anymore at least.
i didn't really believe my mother when she said "the world will change for him and you as well" and i didn't believe my brother either when he said the same thing (it was just phrased differently). my life IS going to change whether i like it or not.
i hope it's a good change. i mean, at least i KNOW it will be for him. but, as for myself i see nothing but lonely nights and days ahead. i already eat dinner by myself, if i even eat at all. ugh! i'll really going to miss having him around.
and, who will i run to with my high-school-related problems? i guess i took him for granted and it's finally setting in that he's leaving for two years (the one's that i know of for sure). but, who knows it COULD be five. and, what if we go in war? could i lose him forever? (i know you shouldn't "what if" but, i'm REALLY worried.)
i know the hardest thing i'll ever do in my life will be finally saying my last "goodbye" to him. and, i really hope it isn't my last "goodbye" forever. but, incase it is: ( dear brother ).
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| zeroeightyone. |
[(05/10/04) (05:25PM)] |
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jets to brazil - starry configurations |
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i've decided that i want to get a job with animals. JUST LIKE KYLE. soo, i think i'm going to apply at a pet store or something like that. YEP, YEP. i have a feeling publix will NEVER hire me and the more and more i go into publix by myself i don't want to work there anymore.
( THE KITTYCAT OF MY LIFE! )
besides that, i wish for my boyfriend to feel better. feeling headache-y is NO fun and i love you very much. sorry i couldn't see you today.
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| zeroeighty. |
[(05/10/04) (12:51PM)] |
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yeah, so. i ended up NOT going to school today. and it sucks because, i actually wanted to go. (ONLY BECAUSE THE SENIORS ARE LEAVING IN TWO DAYS AND I WILL MISS THEM!) i would of gone if i didn't miss the bus or if my father could of given me a ride. but, both did not happen. but, CHRISTINA, i'm still wearing my std shirt. and we are still twins today in spirit that is, if you remembered to wear yours.
( BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED )
OH YEAH. jenn, is it all right if we move our date to wednesday after school? because, i have a project and i have to stay behind at school tuesday and thursday. i just remembered, sorry.
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| zeroseventynine. |
[(05/09/04) (05:58PM)] |
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jimmy eat world - for me this is heaven |
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today has been good, so far. not like i expect it to all-of-the-sudden get really bad. ha. my mother liked her card that i made her, her response was something like "your card was funny, i liked it". she also thought it was funny because i signed it "love your ONLY daughter, jennifer". haha. but, IT'STHETRUTH. i also made her breakfast.
my plans for this following week include: seeing hilton, DATE WITH JENN TO SEE MEAN GIRLS, thrift store shopping (i hope!), getting my hair dyed blonde/light brown, patrick coming over and watching donnie darko, american history (project) meeting, tests, hanging out with kathryn (?) or blanca (?), youth group, school (blah! ONLY twelve more days!), cleaning my room, maybe the FFTL show. and, uhhh whatever else comes up.
YEAH. two posts in one day, ( i'm REALLY bored ).
PS: christina REMEMBER tomorrow is std day, ha. wear your saves the day shirt and we CAN be twins! (kinda.) hehehe, i looovvveeee you.
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| zeroseventyeight. |
[(05/09/04) (12:33PM)] |
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let's get to know eachother a little better. ALRIGHT? YES, everyone, do this:
post some photos of yourself, THEN answer this: (if you don't have any photos then, at least answer what's below, thanks.)
(1) name.
(2) age.
(3) birthday.
(4) favorite color.
(5) favorite band.
(6) aim screen name.
(7) one thing that makes you happy.
oh, AND OF COURSE, ( here's mine ).
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| zeroseventyseven. |
[(05/08/04) (10:51PM)] |
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the juliana theory - infatuation |
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i don't think i ever had a better saturday in my ENTIRE life. thank you. thank you for everything you have given me, you truly do make my life more worth living. i mean, i'm sure i'd survive without you but, just HAVING you in my life makes it oh so much more enjoyable. ILOVEYOU.
( TWO MONTH 'VERSERY - MAGIC KINGDOM )
we rode these rides (all once): walt disney world railroad, buzz lightyear's space ranger spin, walt disney's carousel of progress, tomorrowland idny speedway, tomorrowland transit authority, astro orbiter, space mountain, the haunted mansion, big thunder mountain railroad, mickey's phiharmagic, pirates of the caribbean, jungle cruise, mad tea party. DISNEY IS WONDERFUL. YOU ARE WONDERFUL. gah! YOU = AMAZING.
WOW. so, two months. let's make it last F O R E V E R. kekeke. oh, i wish i could see you tomorrow. but, it's mother's day and i love my mother. ALTHOUGH, i show her enough love 24/7 (even when it's NOT mother's day). she needs my company. i will see you again soon enough (like monday, does that sound good?). i'm going to make my mother a hand-made card because THOSE are the best (and i have no money).
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| zeroseventysix. |
[(05/08/04) (12:52AM)] |
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cursive - fairytales tell tales |
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i know i said i'd most likely STOP writing in here because i saw no point in keeping a livejournal anymore. you know for the reasons of: never feeling like i could type my "real" emotions, always (and only) talking about hilton, and (OF COURSE!) posting photos 24/7. but, NOW i think i'm going to ACTUALLY try harder to type about other things before that. so, i'm not leaving livejournal after all.
i know i should probably be asleep right now since hilton and i will be going to magic kingdom (DISNEY!) tomorrow (actually today, less than 8 hours to go!). (we are going to celebrate our two months 'versery.) but, i think the real reason of not being able to go to sleep, it's i'm REALLY excited. i'm excited to be spending an ENTIRE day with him. he makes me so happy. it's not because i'm NOT tired, because i am, very much so. (i'll have photos of our adventure when i return later on tonight or maybe tomorrow morning. i guess it all depends on how tired i am when i return.)
oh, AND YES, i have a new layout because, well, the other one was annoying me and as jenn (my bff; i'm NOT talking about myself) would say: I'M A LAYOUT WHORE. check it out, if you care. NIGHT.
PS: if anyone actually DOES look at my layout and knows some of this html/override stuff you need to know about for changing livejournal layouts. could you tell me how i can fix the problem in my (lower) navigation box? (you know, how navigation [the word] is aligned on the right and how everything else [viewing and go] is aligned on the left.) if you could help, that would be WONDERFUL. thanks.
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| zeroseventyfive. |
[(05/07/04) (06:10PM)] |
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HAPPY! |
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sleater-kinney - oh! |
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HAPPY TWO MONTH 'VERSERY!
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOU.
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| zeroseventyfour. |
[(05/04/04) (06:40PM)] |
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i REALLY hope everything goes as planned.
WEDNESDAY- youth group with hilton AND kyle.
THURSDAY- ccd show with hilton.
FRIDAY- cornerstone festival with hilton OR tteotd with hilton. and, NOT only that, it will be TWO MONTHS WITH HILTON.
SATURDAY- disney (magic kingdom) with hilton.
OH YEAH! i got my driver's license today.
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| zeroseventythree. |
[(05/03/04) (08:24PM)] |
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i have this really STRONG urge to take photobooth pictures with someone, ANYONE. RIGHT NOW!! but, i'll have to wait until the weekend or something. OH YES, i found this video on photobooth pictures, it's kinda funny and yet, scary.
ONE TIME, i spent fifteen dollars on photobooth pictures.
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| zeroseventytwo. |
[(05/02/04) (11:06PM)] |
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LIVEJOURNAL IS STARTING TO BECOME LAME.
expect EVEN fewer entries from me. i feel no need to update in here as much as i use to. it doesn't interest me anymore. also, i've been on livejournal for over three years. and, i don't feel like i can type my "real" emotions in here anymore (i end up D E L E T I N G those entries later on because i wake up the next day not feeling that way anymore).
PLUS! i'll i ever update about now is how hilton is AMAZING (which he is!) and i'm sure that bores you. and when i'm not talking (/writing) about hilton, i'm posting pictures.
so, bye! i'll be back someday. AND! who knows, maybe this is one of those entries where i wake up tomorrow and i end up NOT feeling the same way i do now. WHO KNOWS.
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| zeroseventyone. |
[(04/29/04) (02:57PM)] |
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sometimes, i feel like i'm 2QL4SKL. lolz.
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| zerosixtynine. |
[(04/26/04) (10:59PM)] |
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poison the well - today |
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i bet you guys HAVEN'T seen this one before:
post a memory of me in the comments. it DOESN'T have to be the first memory of us meeting, it could be the first thing that comes to your mind when you think about me. it can be anything. so, COMMENTCOMMENTCOMMENT!
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| zerosixtyeight. |
[(04/25/04) (10:18PM)] |
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( R.I.P SPITVALVES 1993-2004 )
THIS WEEKEND WAS THE BEST WEEKEND I'VE HAD IN A REALLY L O N G TIME. i don't think i'll ever understand why you must have the most HORRIBLE week to have the most AMAZING weekend ever (hilton, farewell spitvalves show, in due time show, battle of the bands, BLANCA, sleeping ALL day). and best of all, NO school tomorrow. SCORE!
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| zerosixtyseven. |
[(04/25/04) (10:03AM)] |
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the pixies - where is my mind? |
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guess what? I LOVE YOU.
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| zerosixtysix. |
[(04/22/04) (07:42PM)] |
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today was a lot better but, only because i'm lying. (jaykayyy.)
SPITVALVES TOMORROW IF I CAN FIND A RIDE! (i need a ride because the stupid car that my brother drives HAS NOT been working for the past three EFFING days). PLEASE!
SATURDAY = BATTLE OF THE BANDS with blancanator and the courtney's. OH YEAH. i want kathryn back, france took her away from me for a week. eff you france!
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| zerosixtythree. |
[(04/18/04) (08:49PM)] |
( UNTIL THE END )
( EVERGREEN TERRACE )
ALSO! i have PART (/most) of the fight at the end of et's set. BUT, i don't know of any servers that host video files. so, if anyone knows of one, leave the link. THANKS.
THANKS TO CLIFF. you can now view the video here. (and if you need me to take this down cliff. just tell me. i don't want it taking up a lot of space on your server.)
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| zerosixtytwo. |
[(04/17/04) (07:59PM)] |
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I MISS YOU SO MUCH! |
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poison the well - nerdy |
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i'm going to listen to this song over AND over until you return back to me. i missed you more than ever today. i love you so much. SEE YOU MONDAY. (which isn't soon enough, but the best we can do.) ahfkjafbmfb; I LOVE YOU HILTON.
pictures from EVERGREEN and UNTIL THE END, later.
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| zerosixtyone. |
[(04/16/04) (12:52AM)] |
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SILLY! |
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sahara hotnights - alright alright |
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FOR THOSE WITH PHOTOSHOP (/PAINTSHOP PRO).
BE MY TEDDY BEAR!
PRETTY PLEASEEEE.
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| zerosixty. |
[(04/15/04) (07:53PM)] |
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bored! |
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yeah yeah yeahs - machine |
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i want to dye my hair ( THIS COLOR! ) but, i don't think it's even possible because ( LOOK! ) how dark it is now. and i want to cut it too. but, then i don't cause, i'm scareddd.
WHY ARE THERE SO MANY COUPLES AT SCHOOL NOW? it makes me miss hilton EVEN more than i usually do. but, when i'm with him nothing else matters. SO, WHATEVA. he's at the beach right now and he'll be there ALL weekend. NOT COOL. i miss him already. come back NOW. sadface.
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| zerofiftynine. |
[(04/14/04) (10:59PM)] |
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dirty pretty things (MOVIE) |
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TODAY WAS TERRIBLE UNTIL,
SAW YOU. (KEKEKE!) <3
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| zerofiftysix. |
[(04/10/04) (10:00PM)] |
i don't know if i like seeing hilton twice a week. I MEAN, it's REALLY nice. it's just, i get use to seeing him so often that when i don't see him, i miss him alot more (like right now). he's just so incredible to be around. it makes me sad.
yesterday, WE FOUND OUR MASHED PENNIES ON THE TRAIN TRACKS, the ones we put on there wednesday. keke.
i saw the prince and me today with kathryn. it was really nice, it being just kathryn and i, like old times. ALSO!, i've decided that when i'm proposed to, a butterfly MUST fly off uncovering the ring, haha! and, i'm going to marry a prince. (JAYKAYYY.)
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| zerofiftyfive. |
[(04/10/04) (11:18AM)] |
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modest mouse - bury me with it |
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i've been wondering about this for awhile. maybe one of you can answer it for me.
Q: how do you CORRECTLY spell "awh", "awe" or "aww"?
A: _______.
OH YEAH. for anyone who has the NEW modest mouse cd. does this happen to you? you know in "bukowski" when they are yelling, i always think it's my mother yelling at me to turn the music down. it get's me EVERY time.
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| zerofiftythree. |
[(04/08/04) (08:46PM)] |
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blah! |
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what do you think? |
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new layout!
i felt awful ALL day, because of these HORRIBLE stomach aches i've been having lately. i felt bad yesterday too! ONLY because hilton had to deal with me complaining every ten minutes about how much it (the stomach ache) was killing me. (sorry.) but seriously, it felt like BOMBS! were going off inside me. haha! yeahhhh, I'M NOT JOKING.
school is a little stressful now but, i think i can manage. it's NOT because of all this "make up work" i have to do since i gone for a week. it's all the projects my teachers decided to assign at the same time. blahhhhh!
OH YEAH. patrick, it was wonderful seeing you today!
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| zerofiftytwo. |
[(04/05/04) (01:50PM)] |
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iwanttoseehiltonnow! |
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coldplay - life is for living |
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TOMORROW = MODEST MOUSE DAY!
i stayed home today, i REALLY shouldn't have though. sooo much make up work AND projects (that i don't even know of, yet!). i hate knowing i have to return to the normal routine, it's kinda boring.
AND! i can't explain how wonderful it feels to have someone you like, like you just as much back. i can't wait even TWO more days!, the highlight of my week is ALWAYS when i see you. you make me so incredibly happy and i'm vert thankful to have you in my life. i love you, so much.
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| zerofiftyone. |
[(04/04/04) (07:30PM)] |
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rilo kiley - spectacular views |
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i'm back! yay!
( PICTURES FROM THE CRUISE! )
i feel like i've been away for two weeks. i hate reading what everyone did while i was away, so i don't think i will. it makes me sad to know that everyone elses lives have changed when mine has not. i hate feeling like, just because i was away for a week, i've been forgotten. i guess i'm just kinda sad right now.
the cruise was fun, kinda. but, i didn't talk to ANYONE my age. the last night on the cruise this boy finally talked to me, and i said nothing to him in return. i kinda felt bad, but i just really didn't want to talk to anyone. i missed hilton more than i thought i could ever miss a single person in my life. and of course, i missed my friends and my kitty cats.
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| zerofourtynine. |
[(03/19/04) (01:58AM)] |
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i'm feeling much better now.
because i guess i assumed things, like i always do. and i hate that i do that. and i realize that i REALLY do like him alot. anddddd, he's just wonderful, i wouldn't stop talking about him tonight. ask anyone.
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| zerofourtyseven. |
[(03/17/04) (08:33PM)] |
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i smiled so much today, that my cheeks are sore. thank you, for making me the happiest i have ever been. i can't wait to see you again. anddd! of subject, saves the day tomorrow!!
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| zerofourtysix. |
[(03/15/04) (09:24PM)] |
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( this is what i do when i'm REALLY bored!! )
yeahhh. so, today i found my HIGH-QUALITY camera. and somehow my low-quality camera won't turn on AND it's not the batteries, because they are brand new! IT MAKES ME SAD/MAD. hopefully i can get it fixed soon. andddd! today i went with my friend tim and we saw fifty first dates. i thought it was cute/funny/sad.
I TALKED TO HILTON TODAY. i can't wait til wednesday, i get to see him again. he is the most incredible person EVER! he makes me happy. i've never felt like this about someone before and i'm scareddd. hahahaha, it's funny when i think that we ONLY met two weeks ago. anddd! i want to talk to him RIGHT NOW! i miss him. <3.
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| zerofourtyfive. |
[(03/14/04) (01:22AM)] |
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rilo kiley - rest of my life |
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yr dead bangbang: i really do like who i am.
yr dead bangbang: and i really do like you.
xhiltonismex: i really like you too, and im glad you like who you are cause u should, your a beautiful, sweet person,and you have a big heart and i hope you know that i mean that cause i do i really do.
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| zerofourtyfour. |
[(03/12/04) (04:54PM)] |
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the flaming lips - i got a girl |
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hey! who wants to be in my band, yr momma?
that way when people go to our shows they can be like "dude, i saw yr momma last night" or "yr momma is great" and stuff like that.
we'd be the best band out there. of course, i'm vocals.
oh, and ONLY GIRLS need apply. and if you're a guy and you REALLY want to be in my/our band you must be so cool, you make me look lame.
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| zerofourtythree. |
[(03/11/04) (03:40PM)] |
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ANNOYED!! |
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ben folds - the luckiest |
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i think i'm going to STOP going to shows.
unless i REALLY like the band or if it's a friends band. seriously, i'm sick of the shit that comes with the people at shows. i don't think i've ever met so many stuck up immature drama queens in my life. (this has NOTHING to do with last nights show. i've noticed this before, i just never really knew how to type it til now.) it's sad that you can't even enjoy the band you've came to see because the people there feel they need to start drama with you, or they think they are more superior. and the funny thing is they don't really come to the shows to watch the bands, they come to "be scene" or whateva. PSSH! they PROBABLY come to ruin the show for you as well. idiots.
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| zerofourtyone. |
[(03/07/04) (03:24PM)] |
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yo la tengo - the summer |
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i love how this weekend is ALMOST over and i'm already excited for the next one. THIS WEEKEND = CAYLI'S HOUSE! yay! i haven't see her in a REALLY long time. i remember this one time we didn't see eachother for a year. oh well, i love my bestfriend.
yesterday was FUN! i like meeting new people. it's really nice to have a REAL conversation with someone you've just met. i remember when that was REALLY hard for me to do.
AND! once again, thank you for the ride andy.
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| zerofourty. |
[(03/06/04) (01:18PM)] |
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kekeke! |
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the capricorns - pretty girls |
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i'm feeling ALOT better now, thanks.
( RRUNNING OUT OF TIMMEE! )
so, i went to davidson's birthday party last night. (thanks to klyph for driving me around.) the party was alot better than i was thought it would be. i'm KINDA mad at tia for not saying bye, but whateva. (AND! i'm using the word 'alot' in this entry ALOT (har, har), i just noticed that. kekeke. i guess i like that word, ALOT!)
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| zerothirtynine. |
[(03/04/04) (07:41PM)] |
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i'm REALLY tired of always being second best. i don't think anyone else besides me knows what it's like to be second best. it's funny, guys like me and then they like this other girl AND of course they decide to like the other girl more because she's more pretty or whatever the reason is.
ALSO! i don't just want ANYONE to be my boyfriend. i want someone to like me just as much as i like them. i guess that's too much to ask for these days.
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| zerothirtyeight. |
[(03/01/04) (08:44PM)] |
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ican'tspell! |
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depressing emo music, DUH! |
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i know the reason i'm incapable of having a boyfriend: it's because i can't spell (/type). (anyone who has talked to me on aim KNOWS this, haha.)
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| zerothirtyseven. |
[(02/26/04) (05:50PM)] |
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blahblahblah! |
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saves the day |
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it REALLY sucks not having a job. WAIT! it sucks more NOT having money! i'd like to do a lot of things this weekend BUT because of my lack of money.
HEY CAYLI! the fair is coming to town. you, my house, next weekend. k! (it's a tradition.) it would be WONDERFUL to see you again. i miss you, dearly!
i hate how i keep telling myself that when i get home from school i'll go out and get applications for a job. because i'm ALWAYS way too tired after school to go do that. PLUS, i'd like to look nice and i NEVER look nice after school. AND! i'm wayyy to shy to go talk to the manager. i don't think i'll ever find a job.
ALSO! getting to hear the NEW apathy season songs, REALLY made my day. maybe it will make yours too. so, go listen to apathy season, now!
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